days 34-39

long time, no see, juicebuddies!

it's been busy. i've tried to keep up with everyone's blogs, but that has to be squeezed in along with everything else these days. this week i was drooling over heathy's pot pie, terilynn's fritters, and shannon marie's muffins. i was so encouraged by the article terilynn linked to in a local newspaper about three journos going raw for 30 days, and have been following the blog since. and ben made me laugh - thanks to all of you. you make my day :)

so, how've i been doing? first, a humble moment, i'm so grateful to know that what i write here is read by people out there in the big, wide world. people actually want to know how i'm doing. that is such an awesome feeling. you guys, my 'juice buddies' care about my progress enough to stop by - taking a chunk out of your busy schedules - to spend time caring about me. awesome! thank you so much.

so, back to our regularly scheduled programming. i've been physically much better. i've still had some embarrassingly loud gurgles but i've had no headaches over the past few days and i've had enough physical and mental energy to get through the day. i had a couple of unpleasant emotional moments, though, at the end of last week and i can only assume that i hit some kind of deep emotional detox. i woke up on thursday and friday with a mammoth black cloud hanging over my head. talked it through with YummyHubby, thanked him for, as ever, being there to help me along, and he said he can cope with my moods, he just wants whatever's best for me. but i acknowledge it must be tough to have me on this emotional rollercoaster. brief moments of elation and long hours of misery. i don't know where the misery came from, and i was gearing myself for sitting down and having a poke around in my head and heart to sort things out. it seems, though, that despite a heavy-going weekend, i've released whatever was, as i'm now back to being fairly consistently upbeat. which is fab!

i admit there have been a couple of times when i've seriously considered quitting. i've thought long and hard - not just because i can smell coffee and toast (which, actually, no longer tempts me! so bad example, but anyway, a craving) but because i was getting so many headaches, and then they cleared up and i started getting these black clouds in their place. neither of those situations make daily life exactly easy. ok, so headaches suck, but if they get too bad i relent, i take some strong painkillers and get to bed as soon as i can. but a depressed mood, short temper and loss of interest in everything takes its toll on those around me and i don't want YummyHubby to suffer that. and so i asked myself: is it time? have i come as far as i can on this journey? so, since i don't have any prunes, i'm always ready to keep going until tomorrow to see what that brings. luckily, tomorrow generally brings some relief.

ugh. you read this far? you deserve a medal!

so, i've increased my daily juice intake. i'm managing between 3 and 4 litres (roughly same as quarts) and trying hard to keep that mostly veggies, with plenty of greens and i have been feeling so much better these last few days. coincidence? who knows.

i still want this to get easier. no kidding. the buying produce, storing it all, preparing it, scrubbing celery and peeling oranges, making juice, cleaning up, carrying it around with me... it's a never-ending cycle. but at least i've achieved the ultimatum i set myself of feeling physically and emotionally positive for three days in a row. hurray :)

i've got another two posts half-ready, which i'll put up tomorrow or thursday. in the meantime, keep it juicy xxx

image credit: YummyHubby created this south park avatar for me. aren't i cute?